The Beauty in Honesty

You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are HisYou're beautiful - Mercy Me

It is a New year which means a new me. I looked at this blog and couldn't believe how much time had past between the last time I posted and now. I realized though that the reason why that time has passed is because I allowed myself to believe a lie the enemy told me about myself. I decided yesterday to truly allow myself to have an honest moment about the year 2015 and I felt for most part the negative seems to outweigh the positive. I couldn't believe that a year could seem to be so bad. Then it dawned on me to pray about the year I had just experience. To pray for God to reveal exactly what the year had meant and I asked Him to reveal to me his master plan and not see the year through my eyes but His. That is where the change came from. That is when revelation happened.You see I saw the lie as clear as day, but it wasn't until I allowed myself to be honest that I could see it. I think sometimes as Christians we are afraid to be honest with God because we fear upsetting Him. Yet we forget He knows everything we think, everything we feel, so why not come to him and be honest about it all. I feel that when I was honest I was allowing Him to show me things I couldn't see before. I was allowing him to be honest with me and in that moment the scales came off. I believe the lie I seem to struggle with the most and that is feeling unloved and unworthy of love. However in my weak moment of trying to understand 2015 He showed me his love. He showed me that the enemy tries to trap me in fear so that I struggle finding His love. Thus I am to scared to write my feelings here, I am scared to think of what other might perceive me as. So with the end of 2015 came the end of believing the lie that was rooted in me. With this new year I cast out that fear, and I know that I have to continue to remind myself that love is what defeats the fear I feel, yet I have decided to come back to this place.This little platform that God has given to me so that I can not be stopped by the one who tries to steal my joy, but show him that he has no power over who God has made me to be!